Cranky lil' munchkin

Tiba2 teringat Yasmeen cranky malam tadi.

Malam tadi, kita satu family pergi rumah abang to celebrate Daleena's birthday.
Masa nak balik tu, Yasmeen menangis sebab nak ikut Atok dengan Wan dia balik kampung.
Tapi tak dapat ikot pun.

So her mummy asked her whether she wants to ride my car or his papa's.
Being cranky, dia pun nak naik kereta i tapi taknak pakai carseat. Ok.
We gave her option. Pakai seatbelt kalau taknak carseat. Tu pun dia taknak.
So papa dia malas nak layan, angkat dia bawak masuk kerete diorg.

On the way back, Yasmeen called me, sambil nangis ajak i singgah 7-eleven depan rumah.
Rupa rupanya, dalam kereta tu dia dah diam dah.
Lepas tu, dia pusing belakang, dia nampak kereta i follow kereta papa dia.
Ape lagi, start menangis balik sebab nak naik kereta i pulak. Hish budak ni.

So i follow lah pegi 7-eleven. I tak turun. Yasmeen ikut papa dia turun.
They asked me if i want anything, and I said i taknak apa2.

Lepas pergi kedai, Yasmeen hop into my car and I asked her.

Acu:"Yasmeen, what did u buy? Kenapa tak beli untuk acu?"
Yasmeen: "Kan tadi acu cakap acu tak nak apa apa".

Ok fine.

And she said that very clear. Dia tak pelat. Haha.

Sampai kat parking rumah, i tanya Yasmeen lagi sekali.

Acu: " Ala, kenapa Yasmeen tak beli apa-apa untuk acu kat kedai tadi? Kesian acu."
Yasmeen: " Dah, dah, tak payah pergi kedai lagi. Meen nak tido".

Sabar je la budak ni tau.

Twinkle my little star

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Twinkle, twinkle, little star,
How I wonder what you are.
Up above the world so high,
Like a diamond in the sky. 

When the blazing sun is gone,
When he nothing shines upon,
Then you show your little light,
Twinkle, twinkle, all the night. 

Then the traveler in the dark,
Thanks you for your tiny spark,
He could not see which way to go,
If you did not twinkle so. 

In the dark blue sky you keep,
And often through my curtains peep,
For you never shut your eye,
Till the sun is in the sky. 

As your bright and tiny spark,
Lights the traveler in the dark.
Though I know not what you are,
Twinkle, twinkle, little star. 

Twinkle, twinkle, little star.
How I wonder what you are.
Up above the world so high,
Like a diamond in the sky. 

Twinkle, twinkle, little star.
How I wonder what you are.
How I wonder what you are. 

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Where are you my little star? Light up plz.. I still can't find the way...

Let's Start.. Again..

Yes. I think it's official now.
I feel very bad but i know that i must do it.
And I did.

For 10 years, I keep on falling in love with the same person that made me put my trust on him that he'll be the one.
Along the way, I've been betrayed a lot of times but I choose not to blame anyone.
It was my choice to still choose you.
We've been together for so long and I never stop counting.
We grew up, we lived our life, we learned together until we have what we have now.
I've always tried my best to make us happy.
But it was just I, not us.
Everything seems not enough.
The path has differed too much.

I am extremely exhausted.

I was left alone though i do not want to.
So i decided to pull myself out of the game.

 

It hurts me so deep to think that I'm gonna miss my 10 years old family so much.

Just to see they shed the tears, makes my heart completely breaks.
Thank you dear family for your concerns, love and kindness throughout the years.
Sorry for all the mistakes and scars i brought to all of you.

Each of you will always be in my prayers. And my heart.

And to dear you, thanks for all the happiness you brought into my life.

The memories are too good to forget.

I choose to keep them.
You are the most beautiful yet most painful thing that ever happened in my life.

I too made mistakes and I am truly sorry for the hurts.

I will dearly miss you and your presence around me.

And I will always love you more than you know.

I've fulfilll my promise and now I want you to be happy.

I know you are more than happy.

Dear God, please shower these people with happiness.
They deserve better.

As for me, I am struggling to move on.
It's gonna be so hard on me. 

The teardrops are not that easy to stop.
But I believe in my own strength and my faith in God.
My own family and friends are always my anchor.

I wish, no matter how much people has wronged us, do not keep the hatred in us.

Do forgive as it will makes us at least at peace.

Please pray for my speed recovery.

Also pray that everything will be better for him.

Thanks guys for the endless supports.

I love u all so much.

I am a big girl now.
I will go through this slowly and start to build myself up again.
I'll be just fine. 

Let's start all over again.

Farewell 2013

Thank you 2013 for the remarkable memories.
You will be missed.

Hello 2014.
I pray for everything to be just fine for me and the people i loved.
Plz do not let me feel hurt again.

Enjoy the holiday. I love u all peeps.